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[memesy_9]

Few months ago now, I had brain tumor removed. Later I got told I have kidney cancer with growths in my liver and lungs as well. When I first got to see doctor after hearing these news, I didn't want to know how long I have left, because I knew I would fixate on that in a bad way. But I don't know if this uncertainty is any better either.
I don't know what I want to do anymore. Like, my plans were pretty basic - finish school and finally get job in the field I love. To finally catch up with others in life. Doesn't look like it'll happen.

I want to leave something to prove I lived, but I don't know what.